So my good friend Ella recently told me that because of some strange planetary alignment, some of us have been affected in terms of mood and emotion...leading some of my friends and I to go through a period of flattened, lowered emotions, reduced enthusiasm and inspiration....SO I have been searching for inspiration in my life, as this year has been a bit of a long winter doldrums. AND...Since I love to write, I thought why not BLog?! So here I am writing my first blog...
I started 2009 off with a focus on "getting to know myself" better, so that I would always be readily available as an actress, person and friend. My acting teacher and coach, Matthew, gave a great sermon in his class the 8th of January, regarding creating a new year's resolution to be more professional-stating that those who put in the hard work in 2009 will have some payoff in 2010. So as a result I have been trying to get to know myself better everyday....I know it sounds really weird, and perhaps even a bit psychotic...but I think that knowing oneself is probably the most important tool an actor could have. I sit here at my computer every morning with my coffee or tea, and ask myself questions....like: "What does the loudest voice in your head say?" or " What is your biggest secret?". I sit and I write in my journal for at least 20 minutes and answer some weird questions about myself. Sometimes I get stuck, it takes me a long time to figure myself out...which is so weird. I guess it really helps me un-block old memories and stay fresh....Anyways, since I have been doing this, I feel a lot more confident in my work. I feel like I have fresh memories and stories to tell on the tip of my tongue, which really helps, when you have to break down a script and prepare an audition in mere minutes.
Aside from doing that, and trying really hard to better myself as a person--instead of focusing on the auditions I don't get or don't book-- I have also been focusing on another outlet for my creativity and love of dance. Some good friends and I have been working hard on developing a new form of working out for Vancouverites. We are all former and current dancers, and have always loved to move and feel music....and also loved the long, lean muscles that dancer's bodies are made up of. SO stay tuned for more updates on this fantastic new workout that we are bringing to Vancouver.
On the vein of learning about me, another great thing I do, is I pick a word a day, something we actors like to call: Incorporeal nouns, nouns that embody. SO, I would like to leave you with one word to think about for the day: Determination
Think about it, reflect on it, figure out what it means to you...
Peace
J
